Apartness

Life swings;

Between joy and sadness

And togetherness and loneliness

Today,

Now, I hold out

But succumbed.

It’s gone

Compressed in the same room all alone

I’m not really fine

Inside, all I’ve is missing of love

My heart deaden with dazed glimmers

I’ve drawn to these cold things

My soul numbed and apart

All alone with this apartness;

All I do now is to talk myself

So wretched and trapped
Betrayed by myself
to those terrors of my life

Each step I take make me think back

To the days of fantasy

But the only thing that keeps me breathing
is having a hopeful wish;

These thrills will come again

And never leave part me.